Happy Birthday Rock Star!

Dear Ian,

it is now your birthday!

I love celebrating birthdays.  I have decided that for as long as I can, I will take your birthday off and spend all day with you!  If you are in school, you will not have to go.  It will be a day to spend however you like, if you want I will even leave your little sibling at home (with a sitter that is).

Since you are not old enough to decide what to do on your birthday, I made the choice for you.  Your dad and I stayed home and it snowed in the morning.  He then had to go to work later in the day.


After playing in the snow with Kapa’a I made you some Birthday Cake Pancakes!  They were wonderful!


I let you take a nap and then Bamma and I took you to the Portland Children’s Museum for some play time.


After playing we went to dinner at Red Robin with Dad, Bamma, Tante, Poo-Pa-Choo, Emma & Hailey!  Dad let you have ice cream before dinner, but you still ate really good.

Tante made you some cupcakes so we could sing you happy birthday


 this is by far my favorite picture.  You were so excited about us singing to you ❤

 your favorite way to eat, who needs sliver ware?

Tante and Bamma let you open a couple presents since your birthday party was in two days.

 Bamma got you this Snoopy stuffed animal, which you loved so much!

 Tante got you this light saber, which is bigger then you, but it makes noises when it moves and lights up.  It is pretty awesome, but it was a little dangerous for the people around us.

 Dad had to take you outside so you didn’t injure any body at the restaurant 🙂  When we got home, dad gave you the present he got from you.  You will have to grow into it….

I am pretty sure you had a great day, but I know that I did.  I loved being able to spend the day with you and not worry about all the ‘stuff’ that needs to get done.




13 Weeks

Here you are little one at 12 weeks.  I am trying to get pictures of you in a weekly process, but we will see how that goes 🙂

Yesterday (the 15th of March) I had a doctor’s appointment to check to see how you were doing.  We did an ultrasound to take a look at you and make sure you are growing good.  You measured out just shy of 3 inches.  I can not believe how big my belly is to hold just 3 little inches.  You are doing good, we could see your bladder indicating your kidneys are working.  Your little heart beat was strong and at a good rate.  You are a mover, just like your big brother was.

Here is your little profile.  So cute I just want to pinch your cheeks!

Here is what is going on with you at 13 weeks.

You are the size of peach now, and your body is catching up with the growth of your head.  You are moving your arms and legs, but you still have plenty of room in there so I don’t feel those movements yet.

My symptoms are getting much worse.  I am very sick a lot and have to appetite, which means that even though my belly is getting bigger I have not gained weight since my last check up at 8 weeks.  Although we are not concerned about that yet.  I am very tired and really just want to sleep all the time, but of course I can’t.  It seems that I just can’t stay asleep at night.  Which might be why I am getting headaches.  But even with all these yucky feelings, I am still over joyed with your presence.  All these minor unpleasantness’ are worth it in the end.



Wuv You

Dear Ian,

I have been telling you that I love you since the day your were born.  And always before bed I would bend down kiss you on the forehead and say ‘I love you.’

After talking more you would sometimes say it back to me and I would rejoice!  You have no idea how wonderful it is to hear those words said in your sweet little voice.

One night before bed we were in the rocking chair, you were on my lap with your blanket and stuffed kitty.  You looked at your kitty hugged it and said ‘awww. kitty. luv you.’

Really? Your stuffed animal? Really?  but I guess as long as you were understanding the concept I could live with that.

So then the other night we were in the rocking chair before bed and I leaned down to kiss your head.  You looked up at me and smiled then said ‘wuv you’  My heart melted, it was the most wonderful thing I had ever heard.  It almost made me cry.

You don’t always say it, but when you do it is like heaven, and it can make any day a great day.



Week by Week

Dear Little baby,

we have now hit the 11 week mark on this maternity journey.  This whole counting weeks thing can be confusing.  Some of this you probably don’t want to hear about, but hey that is just the way things go 🙂

Week 1 is when the first day of my menstrual cycle began.  So I was not actually pregnant with you during this week.  This date was Dec 16th or the 17th.

Week 2-3 is when conception actually happened.  I believe this was around Christmas, of course it could have happened the first part of January as well.  But regardless it isn’t until the 2nd or 3rd week of a 40 week process that you were actually starting to form.

I am not going to give you a play-by-play of everything that happens, there are plenty of resource for that.  Just Google it.   But the fact is that during these weeks you are turning from a little bundle of cells in to a little baby.

I have to tell you that while we did want to have you, we weren’t quite ready for you.  After giving birth to your big brother I was using a birth control called an IUD, no I am not going to explain it.  It continuously gave me hormones to help prevent a pregnancy.  After about a year it started to make me crazy.  Yes actually crazy!   I was having horrible mood swings and depression.   Not to mention some other unpleasantness, like the fact that it started changing my menstrual cycle to happening every other week instead of once a month!  Talk about not fun.

With all that I decided to have it removed and changed back to taking a birth control pill.  Because of the fact that I changed methods and the IUD had altered my cycle so crazily I still ended up pregnant with you despite being on birth control pills.  Something of which we are extremely happy about, but yes, we are a little scared too.

So now we are just starting week 11.  You are about 1.6″ in length or the size of a lime, and weigh approximately 0.25oz.  You organs have formed and are beginning to function.  You are growing your little finger & toe nails.  Your ears are moving to the sides of your head.  You are moving around in there, kicking and stretching, but I can’t feel you yet.

from http://www.babycenter.com/fetal-development-images-11-weeks

I will admit it is hard to believe you are in there, although my belly is sure getting bigger!