Jedi Crystal has been found

Dear Ian,

Today you were watching Star Wars: The Clone Wars cartoon.  This episode the young Jedi trainees were going in search of their crystals in order to build their light sabers.

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You got out all you Star Wars toys and a little tiny toy dog bone.  You took the bone up to the TV, placed it next to the screen and said “I get it.”

Then you came to me with your little hand closed turned it palm up and slowly opened your fingers.  Then declared “I found my crystal!  It was in my ice!”

Then every few minutes you bring it back to me and I would have to ask if you had found your crystal, to which you would reply “yep. it was in my ice!”

Since we were watching it on demand, this went on for a couple of hours.  But I loved every minute of it.




Things Ian said….

Dear Sid,

“It’s OK Baby Sid, I commin’, I commin’ Baby Sid”

This week your brother is potty training, we were in the bathroom and you started fussing in the living room.  While getting him dressed he started yelling to let you know that he would be right there to take care of your needs.

He is such a good brother ❤




It’s Potty Time!

Dear Ian,

Since last fall I have been trying to potty train you.  Well we have been doing it off and on.  I introduced it to you last fall but I haven’t been pushing it.  You would do well for a while but then you refuse and I wouldn’t do anything about for a few weeks.

Then right before you turned two I found out you were going to be a big brother.  I told my self I would get you trained before the baby came.  I knew the trick with you would be to just put you in underwear all day.  Because I knew it would take a few days I told myself I would wait till the baby got here since I would be home at that point anyways.  We still talked about going potty, we would go occasionally, and if we were going to be home all day I would put you in underwear.

While this was fine, it wasn’t getting you out of diapers.  Tomorrow you brother will be seven-weeks old and you are still not potty trained.  This week we are going diaper free!

So this morning after you was up I took your diaper off and put underwear on.  you said you didn’t want it on and wanted a new diaper.  You started to get upset but I didn’t want to give in so I told you every time you go potty on the toilet you can have a piece of candy.  You told me you wanted corn candy, which I am out of, but I said you could have a pumpkin.  You were sitting on the couch and said ‘I go pee-pee again mama’ and we had to change your clothes and clean you up.  Accident number one.

While eating breakfast you told me you had to go poop, so off to the bathroom we ran.  Turns out you just had to fart, after going back to eating you told be again you had to go, but again it was a false alarm.

The next time though was a success!  Hooray! You did it!  So I gave you a pumpkin and told you why you were getting it.  The candy was a reward for telling me you and then going!  Your reply: “I eat my oatmeal Mama”  What? you don’t want your candy?

You put it on the table and finished all your breakfast.  Leaving candy uneaten is something I have never seen you do!

Monday’s candy count: 4

Accident count: 5 (none of them involving solids!!)

Plus you did really good at dinner! an added bonus for the day.

I Batman

The bedding has been changed, you have had a bath and are lying down in your Batman jammies, all your dirty jammies and big boy pants are in the washer getting ready for tomorrow.  By my count it was a good potty day.



Star Wars

Dear Ian,

Not so long ago, in a galaxy not so far away, a brilliant man made a movie.

The year was 1977, your mom was not born yet, and your father just barely.  George Lucas released the first of what was to become a six movie series titled Star Wars, later to be renamed A New Hope.  Originally the movies were released episode IV, V, VI; 20 years later they made the first three episodes.  In 1999 they released episode I to be followed by II and III.

1977 Episode IV; A New Hope

1980 Episode V; The Empire Strikes Back

1983 Episode VI; Return of the Jedi

1999 Episode I; The Phantom Menace

2002 Episode II; Attack of the Clones

2005 Episode III; Revenge of the Sith

Now it is hard to describe the impact these movies had on my life growing up, let alone the nations.  But I will say they changed everything.  Little boys no longer played “cowboys and Indians” or “cops and robbers” but now they were “rebels vs the Empire” or “Jedi vs Sith”  or “Darth Vader vs Luke Skywalker”

They battled with Light Sabers and Blasters, they made robots and spaceships.  We all had roles: Uncle Ryan was Luke Skywalker, Tante was Princess Leia, I was R2D2 (my favorite character), our neighbor Andy was either Han Solo, unless Uncle Jake was there then he had to be Chewbacca.  We would endlessly act out scenes from the movies, by this time the first three had been released.  When your Uncle Ryan got pneumonia he watched Star Wars all day long.

Not only did it become a staple in our lives, but the lives of millions.  There are conferences and millions of dollars are spent on Star Wars products.    Boys, girls, young and old love these movies.  I will not go into the reasons why, you will find them for yourself.  I recently came across this article in the NY times and he more eloquently describes the love for this movie, by boys who have never yet seen it.

When you started to walk and talk and role play, this past year, one of the things you played was “Star Wars.”  With LT you would battle with light sabers, then  you watched the girls play ‘Lego Star Wars’ on the Wii.  At this time your cousins had never seen the movies but were fans, just like you, because of the games.  Finally PooPaChoo decided to make them watch the movies and would explain what was happening.

We were over there one night and they mentioned watching one of the movies and you came  up to me and said “I wanna watch Star Wars” it was the proudest moment of my life (so far)!  “Yes!” I said, forget dinner and bedtime and all of that! Watch this wonderful movie that I love so dear.  OK so lets not forget the fact that  you were just barely 2 years old.  So you didn’t sit down and really watch it, but you would watch parts of it.  Mostly the parts that involved battles and fighting with light sabers.  But you LOVED those parts.

Now you know all the characters names, well the main ones, and you can pick them out of a line-up.  You have Star Wars toys, and light sabers and you are constantly wanting to watch the movies.  And I couldn’t be happier about.  It is amazing to be able to share something I loved as a kid, with my children and see the same amazement and joy in your eyes.

I will admit that for your first birthday I found it only natural to have a Star Wars themed birthday party for you.  I made you dress up as a Jedi, a costume your Bamma made for you.  I loved it, and don’t worry we will do a Star Wars theme again, probably more then once!



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Little Kicks

Dear Sid,


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I know you are there, you do not have to constantly remind me.  I love your little movements and spins, but do you always have to kick so hard?

And please stop dancing on my bladder, I do not appreciate the sudden urgency at which I have to pee, only to find that when I try to go, nothing comes!

Seriously child, you are going to kick your way through my stomach.  But I love you anyway



In sickness and….

Dear Sid,

So it is now July and the family is finally healthy, well healthy-ish.

For about 8 weeks either your brother or I were sick, or both of us.  It was horrible!   It actually all started with your brother having an ear infection.  Then your brother had a fever for about a week, and he also had this horrible hacking cough that kept us up at night.  I was terrified that he had pneumonia and kept taking him back to the doctor for lung checks.  I had a cold, then got a throat infection so I had to be on antibiotics.   Then I got his cold/cough and the cough lasted about 3-4 weeks.  I would cough so hard, I would end up throwing up and peeing my pants.  I know, not something you wanted to hear about, but it happened.  (You have weakened my pelvic wall, and that much pressure causes things to leak).

The sad part about me being sick and pregnant is that I can’t take anything.  There was one cough medicine my OB said was ok to take, but it didn’t really do anything.  Except I did have to take antibiotics for the throat infection.

So now that we are all healthy, I had my 28 week appointment at which time I had to take the test to see if I had gestational diabetes.   Before going to the doctors I had to drink a solution that has 50g of glucose, exactly one hour after finishing it they drew my blood.  Now this is the most horrid drink ever, because it is just sugar in water.  When I was pregnant with your brother, my levels were normal so I wasn’t concerned about the test.  My doctor’s office called me within 15 minutes of my leaving the appointment to tell me my levels were high.  I don’t know what they were, but the nurse said I had to go in right away and have another test done.

This test involves fasting for 8-12 hours and then a blood draw.  I had an appointment the next day at 9 am, so I wasn’t supposed to eat after 9 pm.  Well, I had dinner about 6:30 and then had a bunch of errands to do because we were leaving for the beach the next day after my appointment.  So about 10:30 I had a snack, but then couldn’t eat again till after my appointment.  Let me tell you fasting and pregnancy do not mix.  I was so sick the morning of the appointment that I threw up after getting out of the shower, and it was so violent that, yes, I ended up peeing.  But I had just gotten out of the shower so I just got right back in it.  I felt awful.

I go to the doctors and they draw my blood to check my levels, and have a baseline.  I then have to drink a solution that has 100g of glucose, even worse than the first time because it has more sugar.  I almost threw it up, but I didn’t want to come back, so I forced myself to keep it down.  Now having not eaten for over 11 hours and then consuming that much sugar is not good for your brain.  I felt so sick, light-headed and had a hard time concentrating.   So exactly one hour after I finished the drink they drew my blood, then again an hour later, and once more an hour later.  Four total blood draws all about an hour apart.  Which also meant I had to sit in the waiting room for over 3 hours!

After all that suffering it turns out my levels are fine and I am not diabetic.  My doctor’s office said that 15% of pregnant women (probably just in the US) have high blood glucose levels, but only about 3% of them actually have gestational diabetes.  Thankfully I do not, because I live off carbs right now.  It is about all you will let me eat.  I am not getting as sick as before, but I am nowhere near normal.  Although I am gaining weight, about 10 lbs so far.

June 25, 2012Here we are at 27 weeks

You are still moving all the time and you have some serious force behind some of those movements.  I can actually see my belly moving!




What’s in a name?

Dear Sid,

first off I would like to point out that we have come up with your name.

Sidney Kopes Jennings

OK, so that name has been on our brains since I was pregnant with your brother.  Sidney was the first name of  my maternal great-grandfather, so your great-great-grandfather.  He was such a wonderful man and helped make me who I am today.  Kopes is the last name of your fathers maternal grandfather, so your great-grandfather.  These two men meant a lot to us, and this is a wonderful way to honor their memories and sharing their legacies with you.

Choosing a name for a child is rather difficult and stressful.  What if they don’t like it, will it make them get picked on growing up, what if it doesn’t end up suiting them, and the list of worries goes on.  When I was pregnant with your brother, we decided to not pick one until he was born.  We had a list of our favorites, but we were afraid of picking one and then deciding it didn’t fit him when he was born.  Your dad decided on Ian at the hospital, and it wasn’t even on the list!  I thought we might go that route with you as well, but from the moment we learned you were a boy, your dad started calling you Sid.

When we originally talked about the name Sid/Sidney, your dad wanted the name to be Sid.  But I said it had to be Sidney formally and we will just use Sid.  My great-grandfather went by Sid, but officially it was Sidney.  So that will be your name, although we will call you Sid, unless of course you are getting in to trouble 🙂

I say all this now, but you are still months away from being here, so who knows what your dad will come up with in the mean time.



It’s a……….

Dear little baby,

Yesterday we had an ultrasound appointment to check your growth and organ development.  It is also the day we found out your gender.

You are a BOY!!!!

When I found out you were going to be a boy, I was sad that I wasn’t going to have a girl.  Don’t get me wrong I wasn’t sad you were a boy, I was just sad I won’t ever have a girl.  I hope that makes sense, because I had always wanted a girl, and you are going to be our last chance.  Plus I thought it would be easier on you and your brother if you were different genders.  But then again, you will have tons of fun growing up and playing together.  It was kinda funny, at the appointment we were talking about what our predictions were, and the ultrasound tech said she thought you were a boy.  She wasn’t done, and had a lot of things to look at so I thought maybe there was a chance she was wrong….but nope.  We have a picture (which I didn’t put up online) that basically looks like a little baby boy sitting on a copy machine 🙂  You are most certainly a boy!

You are healthy, and all your organs looked fine.  Based on your measurements you are 14 oz, which is right on track for 21 weeks.  Your foot, pictured up there, has been doing a lot of kicking lately, along with the other one, and your hands have been punching.  Well you might be stretching or doing cartwheels, but what ever you are doing, you are very active.

I am really happy to have another boy, a little scared, but happy.




Week 17

Dear little baby,

Last week we had a doctor’s appointment just to do a check up.  I am happy to say I have finally put on some weight, it was less than two pounds, but it was still a gain!  This makes me happy because I was worried about your health, that’s what mothers do we worry.  We also listened to your heart beat, it is such a wonderful sound.

The most important thing about this appointment is that I made the appointment for your anatomy ultrasound!  On Thursday May 3rd  Wednesday May 9th we will find out if you are a boy or girl.  I am hoping for a girl, but your dad says boy.  I have always wanted a girl, to be able to girly things, like ballet and dresses and dolls.  However, two boys would be wonderful as well.  You would, hopefully, grow up to be the best of buds.

Either way we will be happy, but it is nice to find out.

There are things I want to start planning, and I can’t until we find out your gender.  They will also be checking the development of your organs, so there are other important things with this ultrasound, then just gender.

April 3, 2012  Here you are at 16 weeks.

At 17 weeks you weigh about 5 ounces and are the size of a turnip.  Your bones are starting to turn from soft cartilage into actual bone.  You can move your joints, and I can sure feel you moving around in there.  I have been kidney kicked a couple of times by you, and whew it was painful.  There is no greater feeling then you moving around, so I welcome every kick and punch you give me.




Dear Little One,

We are now in our 16th week.  These pictures are from 15 weeks, but close enough to the 16 week mark.  It is hard to get pictures of you.  I find that by the time I get home from work, make dinner, feed your brother, then clean him and put him to bed I am so tired and have already put on my jammies.

This week I have started to feel you move.  It comes sooner (like everything) the second time around.  I now know what it is I am feeling, because I have experience.  I don’t feel you all that often, you are still pretty small, only about 4 1/2 inches.  If I were to compare you to a fruit, they say about the size of an avocado.

A couple of weeks ago I had a good week.  I thought maybe all this sickness had gone, like most normal pregnancies where the morning sickness is confined to the first trimester.  But then it all cam back again.  I have to say though, being able to feel you move has made it all worth it.

I will admit that I do get concerned about you.  With me being this sick, and hardly able to eat anything, I worry about your health and growth.  I go to the doctor next week, and I am sure everything is fine, but I can’t help but worry.  After all, I am a mom!

Your limbs are becoming more developed and longer, which is why I am able to feel you roll around in there.  Your skeletal system is developing more as the calcium is being deposited into your bones.  You are even starting to grow little toe nails ❤

Can’t wait till the next ultrasound when we find you your gender! and get another look at your wonderful little face.